I’m not sure what it is, but this week has been a mess for me. I’m just not mentally there, and have been finding it very difficult to focus in class or even study. Been feeling tired all the time, and I really took it slack this week. Making sure to sleep lots, and not over study. In fact, I barely studied this week (thankfully I did a lot of readings ahead the week before). I’m not sure if the one week off school (clinical week) threw me off or if I pushed myself too hard the first month or whether I haven’t been getting enough exercise due to the compact course (I swear, there should be a physical component to the course). I don’t want this to be a depressing post, but just wanted to note that I’m feeling somewhat burnt out this week, which is kind of sad because things are getting more interesting.
What do I mean by more interesting? Well the calls are not so much “paint by numbers” but you gotta start thinking about what’s really going on with a patient, and predict based on mechanisms of injury, vitals, history amongst other things whether you run a protocol or not. I like the aspect where we have to take pieces of a puzzle, such as our knowledge of anatomy, physiology/pathophysiology, our “detective work”–evidence gathered on the scene from damage to a vehicle (in a motor vehicle accident), to stories from bystanders etc, and our patient’s signs and symptoms, and piece it all together. At the moment, we are only getting a taste of this detective work since we’re in our trauma block (which overall is quite simple and doesn’t involve too much complexity). I can’t wait till we get into medical block, where calls get more interesting, complex, and decisions become more difficult.
More and more, being a paramedic is feeling like being a medical detective. Things we do, starting IV lines, or giving medications or other interventions involve putting the evidences together to back up your reasoning behind doing a certain protocol or treatment. Everything is gray, and your job is to part the gray to find out which side is more black or more white and then choosing a side.
Crossing my fingers that my bouts of tiredness will end coming week since exams are creeping up once again, not to mention vehicle extrication day! Yes, trying to stay positive =)